Off to Slumberland...and fast!

Wow! Today was a hard day! Before I had children I 'knew' parenting would be hard (whatever that meant). It truly is the hardest job in the world. And...some days are just harder than others. I would say today was rather an aweful day...but not and AWEFUL day as some. Jason was gone for 14 hours and I was on the front lines of war for most of those 14 hours. Don't get me wrong...we had some laughs and peaceful times, too. So, as I sit back and reflect on my day I just have to chuckle at myself for EVER thinking being 'Mom' would be a piece of cake! You never truly understand something until you have done that 'something' do you? I am reminded that consistency is the key...along with TONS of prayer and seeking God's wisdom. Just when I want to throw my hands up and say 'forget it...I am not doing this anymore...it doesn't work anyway' I remember that this is working and this will pay off and don't quit now...that will ruin everything! So, that was my day. Long, hard, draining work. But, God will be glorified...and He already is glorified. All of that to say...about 2 minutes after dear Bailey was put to bed for the night she was out and in slumber land fast! Have I ever seen her fall asleep that fast? I don't recall it, but if I have...it hasn't been often. And...you know...as her 4th birthday is coming up Jason and I have talked quite a bit about her birth and the miracle it was. With out this fighting spirit and strong will I truly don't know if she would even be here to celebrate her 4th birthday and her 1st birthday in Christ (on August 1st). So, Praise God because she is a fighter...praise God because she is saved...praise God because she truly does want to do what is right, but just needs reminding that we are in control...praise God for her contagious laughter and praise God for her sensitive Spirit just when it seems it's not so. And Dear God...please give me strength for each day, wisdom for each second and rest each night. Please, oh please, mold her into the daughter and woman YOU want her to be and have ME step aside and let YOU do the work.